I must admit. The past days, I've been depressed even over things I know I shouldn't be bothering. Like the state of our nation after the Mendoza stand- off; our country stereotyped as one of the most corrupt nations; feeling like my career is going down and not fulfilling what is expected of me; failures with my relationships; and all others which boil me down to my so-called, "depression". In my solitude, surprisingly, I got the answer from an anime.
I have watched Naruto since it aired our local TV timeslot. Never had an anime moved me the way it did ( or was I that depressed to resort to an anime?). Like him, I have been struggling to make my existence beneficial to others (being acknowleged is too much). From childhood, I've been an attention seeker. I used stubborness to get to my aunts and uncles. Add it with my determination a.k.a persistence, I have been a pain in the a**. This attitude became both my assets and liability too in my journey to where I am today. I struggled to be the best though I am not as intelligent as those of my age. I may not be that skilled in any other fields but I have devised many things to cope up. Now, I have come to my senses again. I have revived my will of fire though I still dont know how...but I would move forward again.
The story is also about Nagato who believed that he could break the curse of the never-ending war. On his way, turn of events filled him with hatred and took on Konoha for revenge. There are many Nagatos around- we are on our way, but when something happens, we change direction and we give up. Can I use the late Rolando Mendoza as an example? He was said to be a model police in some period of his service until he resorted to hostage- taking. There died with him the valor, dignity, and the nationanalistic commitment of protecting the people. And worse, it affected the whole nation, degrading more the negative stereotyping among the Filipino policemen who used to be known in the world as one of the great protectors dating back in 60's and 70's. Like him, not everyone has the enough sanity to handle the stress and pressures. Like the first rats to go on a cheese trap, we must all learn from our mistakes.for when we do it again, it isn't a resolution but another burden to carry.
Thanks God there are Minato, Jiraiya, and Naruto in us. Those who still believe and hope that someday, Philippines will be united as one great nation - without corruption; without political wars; without hatred in each Filipino's great heart. I, for one, wish for that day to come. And coming now to my senses, I also realized it has to start with myself..with our own selves.. Ako Mismo, as others may put it.
To put end on this entry, kudos to those great Filipinos who never ceased to bring honor to the country - Manny Pacquiao for proving to the world that he could be one of the best; Venus Raj who though didn't bag the wished title has won respect and recognition. She is even popularized by her "major, major" phrase. So many other more have proven that we are not ducks waddling in the mud, rather Philippine eagles destined to soar above.. I wish to be the latter.. I know I have to act now...
"The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather in a lack of will." (Vincent T. Lombardi)
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